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Greetings!
It's not nice to write this. Not nice, because
I hate to admit the things I have to admit for
myself here. I will do it publicly. Not because of
some masochistic motivation, but simply because I
do things in public and I have to explain what I
have to explain.
I was already slowing down on updates, but now
I am going to slow down even more. The reason
being, that I simply can't do all the things that
I am currently doing and it has grown over my head
right now.
I wake up in the morning, and basically have to
deal with a lot of things before I go to sleep
again. But this isn't really possible at the
moment, because I simply do not have the energy
and the time.
I have 100's of unread e-mails, 10's of riddims to
mix and sing, a long list of
yet-to-review-material, books to write and so on
and so forth. A situation which comes into
existance as the result of the fact that I do not
have the energy, sometimes not even to go out of
my house.
What's going on?
Well, I don't wanna say too much in public about
everything. Got people to protect and thing. But I
am in a phase in my life that is between
situations. I might very well end in a different
country from where I will work further, but that
is not my first option. Those who know me a bit
more personal know what I am talking about, but I
remain to be very very reluctant in sharing
private stuf on public places so to speak.
However, this private situation does affect/effect
(i do not know the right word right now) my public
works too and it will affect/effect more as time
goes by, at least for the coming months.
Basically, I do not know where I will be in a few
weeks from now and that situation will not change
fore these upcoming months. I tried very hard to
work ahead in time so that my private runnings
would not negatively affect/effect (yeah, it must
be affect) those who like to read the new reviews
and columns and so on, but i must admit: I can't
do it cause I don't have the energy.
In the end, as said, I am in between two
situations. The situation I expect to be in after
having been living thought this terrible phase,
will help me siginificantly in producing more
stuff, but until that time I am in a situation
wherein certain things take all my attention.
When I keep pushing myself to produce, which is
what I do being the workaholic that I am, I push
myself beyond my limits. The results are that I
totally collapse. I dont even have the energy to
look at my emails, to answer the phone, to even
open the door of my house. I don't even have the
energy to participate in "my" own
message boards.
Please pray for me and people around me who are
also involved, because we truly need Jah Guidance.
I notice that we are attacked a lot, where in the
same time we're fighting and struggling for the
well-being of certain people who have been
suffering all their lifes.
I'll try to visit the Message Boards daily, I will
also keep you posted as best as I can, I'm not
planning to go off-line and I know that after this
situation I will have a lot to share. |
