July/August 2008 - Nobody has more than 24
hours in a day and seven days in a week. And
so, your's truly has to realize this too
after a failed attempt to simply ignore this
basic fact of life. The result is, that I
have to stop updating the website for a
while to come.
Read all about it in this special
It's not nice to write this. Not nice,
because I hate to admit the things I have to
admit for myself here. I will do it
publicly. Not because of some masochistic
motivation, but simply because I do things
in public and I have to explain what I have
I was already slowing down on updates,
but now I am going to slow down even more.
The reason being, that I simply can't do all
the things that I am currently doing and it
has grown over my head right now.
I wake up in the morning, and basically
have to deal with a lot of things before I
go to sleep again. But this isn't really
possible at the moment, because I simply do
not have the energy and the time.
I have 100's of unread e-mails, 10's of
riddims to mix and sing, a long list of
yet-to-review-material, books to write and
so on and so forth. A situation which comes
into existance as the result of the fact
that I do not have the energy, sometimes not
even to go out of my house.
What's going on?
Well, I don't wanna say too much in public
about everything. Got people to protect and
thing. But I am in a phase in my life that
is between situations. I might very well end
in a different country from where I will
work further, but that is not my first
option. Those who know me a bit more
personal know what I am talking about, but I
remain to be very very reluctant in sharing
private stuf on public places so to speak.
However, this private situation does
affect/effect (i do not know the right word
right now) my public works too and it will
affect/effect more as time goes by, at least
for the coming months.
Basically, I do not know where I will be in
a few weeks from now and that situation will
not change fore these upcoming months. I
tried very hard to work ahead in time so
that my private runnings would not
negatively affect/effect (yeah, it must be
affect) those who like to read the new
reviews and columns and so on, but i must
admit: I can't do it cause I don't have the
In the end, as said, I am in between two
situations. The situation I expect to be in
after having been living thought this
terrible phase, will help me siginificantly
in producing more stuff, but until that time
I am in a situation wherein certain things
take all my attention.
When I keep pushing myself to produce, which
is what I do being the workaholic that I am,
I push myself beyond my limits. The results
are that I totally collapse. I dont even
have the energy to look at my emails, to
answer the phone, to even open the door of
my house. I don't even have the energy to
participate in "my" own message
Please pray for me and people around me who
are also involved, because we truly need Jah
Guidance. I notice that we are attacked a
lot, where in the same time we're fighting
and struggling for the well-being of certain
people who have been suffering all their
I'll try to visit the Message Boards daily,
I will also keep you posted as best as I
can, I'm not planning to go off-line and I
know that after this situation I will have a
lot to share.