July 12 2007 - These past few weeks I have
been on an ongoing spiritual journey. A
journey which led to a deeper insight, and
not only into my own spiritual identity.
Due to this journey, I was unable to
really update the website on a daily basis.
The reason for that has to do with time,
time which I needed in order to focus on
Things, that had directly to do with my
spiritual identity and ministry.
I use this word with care, because I know
the term "ministry" and
"minister" is abused to describe a
certain "level" in a hierarchy
called "Christendom". A minister,
though, means "servant" and a
ministry is what he does to serve.
We are all ministers, we all have a
ministry, when we are born in the Spirit of
Jah thanks to the fulfilled works of Yesus
Kristos Who really is JAH.
My ministry is partly in the field of
spiritual warfare and discernment, which can
be pretty intense at times. Sometimes, it
shows on the website's forum and I engage
many things in the Outernet too.
My ministry doesn't take up whole my
life, though. This is not the way our Father
works with us. He gave us life, life to
live. He gave us a body to be able to enjoy
the good things in this creation, and we all
have been given talents with which we can do
When I became born again on august 6th,
1985, I was in the situation that I had only
one hour left to live. I knew, after I
became born again, that I would not die that
day. Jah told me then, that He had
"something to do" for me.
Just recently, Jah pointed out this out
to me again. He showed me my life, the life
I am blessed to live.
Yes, Jah uses me for a ministry and the
fact that I am a dreadlock, which really
means Separated One, tells a thing about the
But apart from that, I am blessed to be
able to have this independent website and to
have my musical works. I love Reggae Music
and especially DUB, and my reviewing of the
music obviously is not my ministry.
But Jah has given this to me, too. It is
a blessing, something to give thanks over.
To be able to have this site, to be able to
create music and not be depending on any
form of success whatsoever, just giving
This is what my Lord, my God, my Father,
my Saviour, has given me.
This is why He let me live, too.
This is how good He is.
He has given me a new spirit, my soul is
being healed, and I will be made full when I
am given a new body. But even for this body,
Jah has given me things to enjoy.
It is enjoyment, to have this site and
musical works, to be able to create Dub
music whenever I am inspired and to release
it without having to deal with big companies
with demanding attitudes.
And there is also a spiritual reason
behind this carnal blessing.
My ministry is spiritual. But since I am
in this body, I must use my body in this
ministry, too. For example, I have to take
my spirit to a different place by using my
body, for my spirit will not leave my body
unless Jah does such a thing and He will
keep that body protected while I'm gone.
But my body, my flesh, can only deal with
a certain level of spiritual activity.
I have recently been involved with people
being delivered from evil spirits that
possessed them. On one occasion, we saw
literally 10's of these beings leave the
place. We saw them with our physical eyes.
We, as in more than one person seeing the
same things in detail.
I am only giving this example, to show
how our bodies are involved in our spiritual
ministry. And it is intense, very intense,
to look into the spiritual realms with our
That is why Jah only gives so much to
handle. Everyone receives these things
according to the way they are created by the
Father, and none of us are being driven
beyond what we are able to carry in our
I recently discovered, that there is
something I carry in my body, too.
It is called "trauma".
It came to the surface, when I was
gathering and processing material for an
article about the new Christafari album
"To the Foundation". In what
turned out to be an amazingly revealing
interview, Christafari's front man explained
once again how he would perverse and abuse
everything he perceives as Rastafarian
and/or Christian in order to make money from
the faithful who think they buy spiritual
food when they buy his works.
I felt a pain in my body, a physical
pain. And the pain was very, very familiar.
But it was limited to my body, and could not
reach my spirit.
So, the pain was there but limited. It
was only there for me to observe, so that I
can write about it. It is like I am looking
from my spirit to this pain in my body.
The pain was very familiar, as it was planted
inside of me when I was a very little child.
It is called "trauma" and the
reason for it has to do with mind control,
or brainwash in order to be controlled.
I recognized it as the very same pain
that caused me as a child to choose for
satan rather than for the Jesus Christ that
was proposed to me by the churchicans.
But since I know the truth, that I did not
know as a child, I now know this "Jesus
Christ" was not the Divine Saviour but
satan in disguise.
Yes, on this journey Jah showed me
exactly what it was that I was dealing with.
And it can be found in Psalm 91.
The psalm describes people who
"dwell in the Secret Place Of The Most
High", how this makes you kind of
untouchable but you are able to observe
what's going on, while in the same time you
engage spiritual warfare from the secret
place of the Most High, which is spiritual
and called "being in Christ" by
the apostle Paulus.
The "snares of the fowler", and
the "noisome pestilence", the
"arrows that flieth by day" and
the "terror by night", all these
things are familiar to me. They are
sometimes persons, mostly demons or other
evil spirits, and sometimes it's just pure
evil that tries to get at you.
But even though they have supernatural
origin, none of these things should be
regarded as "spiritual" and that
is why they usually take place within this
3D/4D realm where our bodies dwell.
For my body is not fully in the Secret
Place of the Most High, but my spirit is.
Don't ask me the tech-know, all I know is
that it is true.
This is why you can read in the Bible,
how witchcraft and all these supernatural
things are "works of the flesh"
and not "fruits of the Spirit"
(note the capital S). They are just to
satisfy our carnal lusts and there is
nothing wrong with carnal lusts persay, just
certain carnal lusts are outright sins.
This is why the pain I felt was on that
carnal level too.
It came in the form of the voice of
Christafari's front man, explaining how
Trinidad is full of "cannibals"
and his outright lies concerning the
"books" written about him (I
wonder who he meant with that). Add to that
the manifold false teachings and abuses of
the Bible, and the fact all of this is
supposes to be "spiritual food".
Pretty sickening, yes?
But the pain also came in the form of
what I have come to define as "churchicans",
people who basically think about themselves
that they are "Christian" and will
try to cover me with their "love"
and "prayers", in reality nothing
else but hate and curses.
I have desperately tried to reach out to
them. After all, they are supposed to be my
brothers and sisters in Christ, right?
There are certain things, which people
who are born of the Spirit will show,
especially when they are supposed to be
older in the faith.
A love for the truth, for example. A
willingness to expose false teachings, a
willingness to stand corrected too. A
self-identification within the Body of
Kristos rather than in some man-made
organization. A trust in Jah rather than in
methods, and most of all: a personal
relationship with and revealed by Yesus
These things show instantly. You will
recognize these people, even when you don't
know them and might disagree with them on
They will not ask certain questions.
They will not adhere to certain
I have desperately tried to reach out to
them, as said. I based this on certain other
principals, that will not have to be
explained to any true Spirit-born person.
They might not even know the words, but they
will recognize the principals as these are
the principals by which they live their
Most of the people I tried to reach out
to, did not recognize the principals. In
other words, they were obviously not born of
Even little babies know how to drink the
milk. They know how to cry when they first
start breathing independently from the
mother. They know how to express hunger and
happiness. And most of all: none of this has
to be explained to them.
Now, I knew that many people who I tried
to reach out to, are reading the Dubroom and
especially the Message Boards in order to
read what I had to say to them. Even in
reasonings, I would write sentences directly
to these people.
Until Jah said: "no more".
He showed me the trick. He showed me,
that my trying to reach out to them was
completely misunderstood. One of these
people I tried to reach out later even told
me himself that in his eyes I was like
someone trying to make a blind man see the
When He told me to stop reaching out to
them, this is when the attacks and
revelations came in many forms: Spiritual
Warfare, scorn and ridicule, infiltrations
on the Message Boards, et cetera.
I announced on my board that the spies
who would spy would no longer be served on a
platter, and I announced later on how I
would no longer be trying to knock on
Christafari's door in attempts to make them
repent from their money-making of true
Christianity and true Rastafari.
Only a minute later, I received an e-mail
from Mr. Christafari himself: Mark Mohr, he
had a request to me to help him out getting
a touring schedule in my home country of the
Netherlands, where they will perform to
promote their album in which they call me
and the One Who sent me a "lying and
deceitful man", and my brothers and
sisters in Trinidad "cannibals".
Of course, I was on one of his email
lists, but I wrote back. I wrote him one
line: "You really hate me, don't
you". He wrote back and admitted how
this contact we had was organized from the
supernatural realms, but he told me that it
was so that I would know he was not trying
to fight me. Well, I know that to be untrue
so I told him that.
The reason obviously was, an attempt by
satan to trigger my trauma's. A scorn:
"if you don't reach out no more, we
will "reach out" to you"...
Poor Mark, he wasn't even aware of what
he was doing.
I'm sure he did not deliberately send
this a minute after I posted a message
wherein I announced no longer to be trying
to reach out to (people like) him.
But he sure was able to be used that way!
Of course, he could have come clean back
then. He could have seen how this was for
him perhaps a truly last chance. But
instead, he chose to lie to me. It's all
On another website, I encountered
something even more interesting. Like hungry
wolves, a group of church-defenders,
homosexualists and self-proclaimed atheists
preyed on me after I posted a few reasonings
and news items about an interview I was
blessed to do on Channel Z Radio about
Rastafari and Jesus.
They would, between the lines of
political correct attempts to make me shut
the **** up and insults that ranged from the
very profane to more subtle variants, tell
me how they would do it as their
"entertainment". In other words,
either I am a clown or they are the seat of
the scornful and I know that I am not
playing around like a clown.
The churchicans in that unholy alliance
of homosexualists, churchicans and
self-proclaimed atheists would know, because
I told them, that I would no longer try and
reach out to them, but would answer their
questions if they would ask me.
And while they thought they were keeping
me in their snare, firing their arrows at me
in a desperate attempt to make me do what
they wanted me to do, I was only observing
this from my spirit.
I saw, how they could not reach my spirit
even though supernatural events occurred.
While I tried to tell them what they said
they wanted to hear about, it became clear
that they were not really interested in
that. Anti-christs who had condemned me with
the usual "accusations" of
"you think you are more holy than
us" and so on also refused to put me on
their "ignore list", saying how
they would miss the
"entertainment" they would feel
when they play their game. This showed
clearly how they were more than just
"offended by a different
I learned, by pure observance from my
spirit, what was really going on. I had
never witnessed it this clear before, as Jah
explained to me how all of this was
connected with other things I engaged
throughout my life.
Satan tried to use people like puppets to
trigger the trauma's he so carefully planted
in me when I was a little child and was
basically told that the god of this world
order was called jesus christ. The trauma's
were planted as the result of abuse and were
further cultivated when I was
demon-possessed before I became born again.
The trauma's had been dictating a lot of
my actions in the past, and after I became
born again Jah de-programmed me in a period
that lasted over two decades.
I still have the trauma's, I am not fully
healed yet. And I will probably not be
healed as long as I am in this body. But it
doesn't matter anymore, because I know that
this has to do with my spiritual identity
and all they can do is get at my flesh. So
they will always miss the target, even when
they will kill me physically which I believe
will happen somewhere in the future.
For the trauma's were planted in
me to keep me from becoming who I really am:
a dreadlocksman, known by Jah from the
foundation of the earth, a Separated One as
the Book of Life calls us Yesus Dreads.
It's an attempt to make me
"join" whatever. So it's aim is
actually quite the opposite of what I am
supposed to be. This is why the pain is
rather useless for my body, as it doesn't
have any function whatsoever, and I already
am in the most precious -secret- fellowship
with my Idrens on the spiritual level where
all of this is relevant.
But here I am. Yes, my body carries the Mark
of The Nazarite. In other words, people who
see my body see my dreadlocks and they will
know I am a dreadlock. But they will not
necessarily know, that I am a dreadlocksman
as the result of my spiritual identity
rather than my physical body or identity.
And so, I believe that all of what is
happening to me lately is revealed to me as
a lesson. A lesson that tells me more about
who I am.
No, I do no longer have to reach out to
those that do not want to hear anyway. I do
no longer have to answer trick questions by
people whose sole purpose it is to kill
every seed I sow.
In other words, I do no longer have to
allow them to try and trigger my trauma's so
that they will see how little use their
carnal trauma based mind control really
is when you are spiritualy born.
This is a great relief, obviously.
Not, because there was ever a moment in
which the trauma's were too much, or were
leading me towards renouncing Yesus Kristos
and start worshipping the god of this world
order, worshipped in the church-and-state
system called Babylon which is also this
Far from that. I am not created that way,
even in the phyisical.
But it is a relief to know, that I will
no longer have to put my body in a position
where the wolf pack can come to me and try
to eat my flesh. It is a relief to know,
that from now on I just have to give thanks.
Will this have an impact on the Dubroom,
and my other activities?
The contents of my upcoming articles will
be different, as all these things that I
learned will be incorporated in it. I will
write these articles for those that will,
like me, give thanks.
I will no longer try to explain the
obvious to people who are not interested in
the obvious, while those that know the
obvious will not be served when I would
express the obvious.
So I did turn the other cheek, I did walk
that extra mile, I did provide more than
asked for, and still it wasn't enough.
"Entertain us once more", somebody
said to me, coming in the name of his christ,
after I tried to explain the obvious
countless of times.
So, where does this journey lead me to?
Some things become clear, now.
And they all point out to a deeper level
of my identity as a Dreadlocksman, an
identity I did not choose but was chosen for
me from before I was conceived.
A spiritual identity, that would only be
mine after I would be born spiritually but
wherein I could be myself in the way I was
intended by my Creator, JAH.
Which happened on the 6th of august 1985,
making my spiritual age the age of 22 at
this moment, almost 23 as a matter of fact.
It is therefore only logical, that I turn
from puberty/adolescence to adulthood,
My identity as a spiritual Nazarite or
Separated One, an identity whose mark I
carry on my head in the form of dreadlocks,
led me to see certain things. And because of
my separation, or independence if you will,
I have the time and possibility to search
out these things for those that may not have
this time and possibility but will give
thanks as well.
I am not a soul-seeker, my very identity
as a Separated One would reveal that.
Soul-seekers try to find ways to get people
in their group, because they look for power
as they are ultimately guided by the
ultimate soul-seeker which is satan himself
and they themselves have to feed of the
souls they steal.
Jah is not a soul seeker in that sense at
all. Jah knows already who will give thanks
and who will scorn. He Himself created us,
and became a man and died for us at the
cross. He bought our body, soul and spirit
with his own precious blood and even though
He wants nobody to perish and can therefore
not be accused of creating people to perish,
there are many who will perish.
He told us, that He sent us as sheep
among wolves. And therefore, we have to be
innocent like doves and subtle like the
serpent himself. He said, we should not cast
our pearls before the swine, so it's not
like I am undergoing some unbiblical
heretical spirituality in this journey.
But it definitely is a journey, and I
travel on this journey with just Jah and I.
It has to be like that. I am not looking for
souls. And none of this has anything to do
with the fellowship I do have with my
spiritual brethren and sistren in Kristos
either. I need the fellowship as a fellow
child of Jah, but in my ministry, I have to
walk this walk alone so to speak, separated
is a better word where independence would
also be applicable.
Yes, my ministry has directly to do with
other people. For you serve the fellow
saints. And they know who they are. I do not
know all of them. I don't have to, either. I
just do what I have to do, and will give