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I concluded my last update with the fact that I
was trying to work ahead at the Dubroom, in order
to be able to find a little bit of rest after the
quite intensive project that resulted in my album
"Showcase".
Without getting the Dubroom into a "state
of rest", too...
And, as you probably noticed, I am kind of
working ahead too. This update is written on the
9th, but it won't be announced on the Dubroom front page
until the 13th.
I wake up, do my morning rituals and the first
thing I do is uploading the new Dubroom front page
that has been prepared the day(s) before. Then I
do some correspondence works and start posting the
new front page to my weblogs at Versionist and
MySpace. And it's not until that moment in which I
kind of almost fall down, that I realize it's time
to get some sleep again.
The problem of a work-a-holic like I am is,
that the state of not working in itself is a cause
for fatigue. It seems like I'm kind of unable to
get some kind of balance. And maybe I don't have
to look for that balance either.
For being an artist doesn't only mean having a
little bit of talent to produce a work of art, it
also means a continual process of input. I live
intense, I think intense, whenever I'm awake I'm
on the look for inspirational things.
It can be one word I hear in the supermarket.
It can be the look on someone's face. It can be a
scenery in Creation or it can be something else.
But there are always things going on that
potentially could be transformed into a work.
Maybe it's my fate. When my work is over, I
will fly away home. But until then, I'll keep
doing what I do. Something like that.
But then, when I was talking about this with a
very good friend of me, he pointed me out to the
fact that even the Most High JAH took a rest,
after 6 days of work. And I realized that I was
looking in the wrong direction to get some rest,
myself.
What better place is there to rest, than in the
Father's arms?
And so, I decided to be much more conscious
about this.
I am blessed with the fact that once a week, a
small group of people gather themselves in order
to celebrate last supper and pray to the Most
High, basically having what you could call
spiritual fellowship in Yesus' Name. A point in
the week to let go the list-of-things-to-do, to
realize that in the end it's all about the fulfilled
works of the Divine Saviour.
So I will probably have to face the fact, that
a few times a year I am falling into a deep black
hole of fatigue, and I shouldn't try to deny the
fact that I am an artist and an artist lives and
thinks intensively.
But in that realization, I also know that I can
rest in the hands of the Father, and not only when
I and I gather around Jah Throne to celebrate what
He did for us.
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